Stevan had never imagined himself as a soldier in service to a great cause, and it had never even occurred to him that he might have had it in himself to be a leader. But here he was, a Silver Shield to the Magister of the Torvaran Empire, leading troops he, himself, had helped train onto a field that, in the hours and days to come, would mark the place where, after far too long, the forces of evil and oppression would finally begin to be driven from the land. It surprised Stevan to find himself thinking in such terms – hadn’t he, at one time, almost wound up, at least somewhat, an ally to those forces, a dabbler in petty crime and not-so-petty thievery? – but, now that things had progressed as far as they had, he could no longer imagine himself thinking in any other way. Stevan, though he had yet to be tested by combat, was proud of what he’d become, and had sworn an oath – to himself, and to whatever god might have been listening – to never again be tempted by the baser things in life. I’ll still drink and chase women, though, he thought as he watched his troops settle in to their camp on the eastern rim of Gelevan Gorge. But probably not as much.
“It’s quite a sight, eh, Stevan?” Robert asked as he rode up beside him.
“You can say that, again,” Stevan said. He looked at the man who had been his friend for as long as he could remember. “Never thought something like this would happen to us, did you? Back when the Old Duke caught us trying to break into the castle, I mean.”
“I’m still surprised he didn’t have us hanged,” Robert said. “By rights, he should have.”
“It was Garrold’s doing, I’ll wager,” Stevan said after the two of them had been silent for a few moments. “He’s always been one for mercy, and the Old Duke knew how close he was to us. If Garrold didn’t put in a good word for us back then – and I know he’ll never tell us if he did or not – then the Old Duke must’ve known how much it would’ve hurt his son if he had to watch his friends being hanged.” Stevan shook his head and laughed. “Gods Above, we were stupid in those days, weren’t we?”
Robert nodded. “The Old Duke may not have hanged us, but he punished us for it, all the same,” he said. “Unpaid service as Garrold’s personal guards, and exile if we were ever again seen mingling with him in any other than an official matter. That was the hardest part, really. Garrold was the best damn dice player I’ve ever met, and I’ve never met anyone who could even come close to out drinking us the way he used to.” He looked at Stevan. “Do you really think the Old Duke had one of the Conclave come and wipe Garrold’s memory of us?”
Stevan shrugged. “Can’t see any other way he would have forgotten us so completely.” He smiled. “It was nice when he started paying us, wasn’t it?”
Robert chuckled. “Yeah, it was,” he said. His mirth faded. “At least until we became Silver Shields. I feel like I’m robbing him, anymore.”
“You could give a part of it to charity,” Stevan said. “That’s what I do, anyway.”
“Harder to buy drinks and women with it if I do that,” Robert said. He grinned at Stevan. “Guess I’m not quite as pure as you yet, eh?”
No, Stevan thought. But your conscience has certainly grown. He grinned back at Robert. “Guess not.”
The two of them fell into a companionable silence. Stevan kept his eyes on his troops, watching as they took up their positions, making sure everyone he saw followed his training as closely as could be reasonably expected. Once the battle broke – tomorrow, or the next day, or, maybe, even the day after that – Stevan felt his men would do their best, but he was also sure that not everything would go smoothly. There were cowards and shirkers out there – to think there weren’t would be more than a little naive, especially for someone like Stevan – and he knew all of them were unnerved by the night that refused end. He, himself, was so bothered by it that his hands had started to itch – a gnawing, bone-deep itch that made him have to keep flexing his fingers inside his gloves, which really did nothing to affect the itch, at all.
“Hands itching, again?” Robert asked.
“Mmm,” Stevan muttered, nodding, not at all surprised Robert had seen his hands moving in the gloves that were as black as the night that surrounded them.
“It start before we arrived?”
“Yeah.” He looked at Robert. “How’s your head?”
“Pounding,” Robert said. “Everything looks real bright, too. Just like usual when I get anxious, I suppose.”
“Ever talk to one of the clerics about that?”
Robert laughed. “No more than you’ve ever talked to one about your hands. Their magic might be healing magic, but I don’t want it touching me unless I’m dying.”
“I know what you mean. Robert, why do you think we’re still so afraid of magic? We serve a mage, after all.”
“Garrold might be a mage,” Robert said, looking at Stevan, “but he was our friend long before he ever figured that out. Magic stole him away from us. Magic that was used on him without his permission. No one should have the power or authority to do that to someone else. Now, I know what Garrold’s said about not allowing anyone to do anything like that, anymore, but – even though I do trust him to keep his word – I can’t help but wonder. What if this war changes his mind, Stevan? What if it makes him more worried about what’s expedient instead of what’s right?”
“Wilem would never allow that,” Stevan said after a brief silence. “He’s the one who encouraged Garrold to name himself Magister, after all. Wilem wouldn’t have encouraged something like that if he thought Garrold would ever allow himself to fall back into the Conclave’s old patterns. Garrold’s going to be different, Robert. I know he is, and not just because he used to be our friend. Something about all of this just feels right, somehow.”
Robert was silent for a moment. Then he smiled. “It does, doesn’t it?” he said at last. “Maybe you’re right, then. And maybe we should stop being so afraid of magic.”
“I couldn’t agree more.”
Somehow, Wilem had arrived with neither Stevan, nor Robert, noticing his approach. Stevan looked at the monk – who, despite his baldness, was almost the spitting image of his brother – and said, “You heard that whole conversation, didn’t you?”
Wilem smiled. “Most of it. Could I have a look at one of your hands, Stevan?”
Stevan flexed his right hand – Gods Above, but the itch was maddening, and had almost begun to feel like burning – then pulled his glove off and handed it out to Wilem. Wilem stepped forward and took the hand in his, leaning forward as he studied it, almost as if he were examining some kind of exotic gem. Stevan almost asked how Wilem could see anything in the low light, but then he felt the slight tingle of the monk’s magic on his skin. He nearly pulled his hand away, but was able to hold still – now was the perfect time for Stevan to stop being so afraid. At last, Wilem let Stevan’s hand go, and, when he looked up, there was a mischievous gleam in his eye.
“How long have your hands bothered you when you were nervous?” Wilem asked.
Stevan frowned, and, though he moved to put his glove back on, found he suddenly no longer wanted his hands covered. “I don’t know,” he said, pulling the glove off of his left hand, and then tucking both of them into his belt. “Since I was a boy, I think.”
“Try conjuring a fireball,” Wilem said.
“What?” Stevan and Robert said at the same time.
“Just what I said. Stevan, imagine a ball of fire appearing in the air above your fingertips. Picture a small one – at least for right now – and concentrate on the image as hard as you can. If I’m right, what happens next should really come as no surprise, at all.”
“But, I’m no mage!” Stevan said.
Wilem smiled, again. “Are you sure about that?”
Stevan looked from Robert, to Wilem, and back, again. Robert – predictably – looked confused. Wilem’s expression was nothing but expectant – and, maybe, just a little smug. What if, as mad as it sounded, he could conjure a fireball? Would it make his hands stop itching? Since taking his gloves off, Stevan’s hands already felt a little better, but they still itched, and the itching made them feel restless. He flexed them – the old habit, which, as always, did nothing – then shrugged, holding his right hand out with palm up and fingers curled. Almost as soon as Stevan pictured the fireball in his mind, one appeared in the air above his hand, its flames mere inches from the tips of his fingers. He stared at it for a moment, less surprised that he felt he should have been, then laughed. The itch in his right hand was gone.
“Holy shit,” Robert breathed from beside him. “You’re a mage, Stevan! A fucking mage!”
“And not just any kind of mage,” Wilem said. “You’re a Pyromancer. It means you have a special affinity for fire.”
Stevan made the fireball disappear, then conjured another one with his left hand. The itch in that hand vanished just as it hand in his right, and for a moment, he sat, entranced by the flames that danced above his fingertips. Hadn’t he always liked fire? Hadn’t it always somehow called to him? And then he frowned, a memory he hadn’t thought about in a long time bubbling suddenly to the surface. I burnt the cottage down. I almost killed Mother! Stevan dismissed the fireball and raised his hands to his face, weeping.
“It’s all right, Stevan,” Wilem said, his voice soft. Stevan felt the monk put his hand on his shoulder – which shouldn’t have been possible, since Stevan sat on a horse, and Wilem was afoot. “It’s all right.”
And it was – almost. But Stevan had still burnt the small cottage he’d shared with his mother down, had almost killed her – and himself – in the fire he’d started, and all because he couldn’t get his hands to stop itching. I need to remember, he thought. This gift can be dangerous. Stevan felt Robert’s hand on his other shoulder. He took his hands away from his face, blinked, and looked at him.
“He’s right, mate,” Robert said. “I don’t know what you remembered, but, whatever it was, it’s all right.”
Stevan smiled shakily. “You’re a good friend, Robert,” he said. “You always have been.”
“He is,” Wilem said. He was still standing on the ground in front of Stevan’s horse, so, whatever Stevan had felt from him, it had been because of his magic. “I’m sorry the two of you had to lose Garrold the way you did.”
“The past’s the past,” Stevan said, surprised at how philosophical he sounded. He cleared his throat. “So, Brother Wilem, you helped with my hands. Do you think you can do anything for Robert’s head?”
Wilem looked at Robert and grinned, the mischievous gleam back in his eye. “Perhaps,” he said.